2021, A Day In The Life Of Liz, Idaho, mental health, Reporter, Suffolk University

My journey with mental health

When I was in 10th grade, I had my first panic attack. I was backstage waiting to go on for the closing number of Les Mis ( the spring musical I was in) and I thought I was going to pass out. My eyes were blurry and my legs were shaking. I didn’t go on for the number and instead sat backstage shaking and taking deep breaths.

I had my second panic attack in Mr. Flaherty’s history class 2 days after that. I went to the nurse because I thought I was going to throw up. My mom dismissed me from school.

I’ve had a panic attack in the shower, on the bus, on the train, in the car, and in my bed. I’ve had a panic attack during a band concert and on a plane. I had a panic attack on a boat in Greece and on my living room floor. 

By senior year of high school they seemed to be getting better, or at least I had learned how to control them. I knew the signs and the triggers and I knew how I felt before they started. I thought I was doing better. 

I was excited and ready to go to college. I was going to live in the dorms and it was going to be amazing, or at least that’s what everyone kept telling me.

But it wasn’t amazing, in fact I hated college my first year.

Every night, around 3 in the morning I would wake up from my deep sleep having a panic attack. I would cry and shake and be nauseous. I would walk out of the dorms to the middle of Boston because I just couldn’t breathe and I needed some air. My heart was racing and my palms were sweating, but I felt freezing cold. And it happened, every single day. 

I didn’t tell anyone. I went into college thinking it was going to be the best years of my life, and everyone would be having a great time. Why wasn’t I having a good time? What is wrong with me? I’m all alone, or at least that’s how I felt. 

By the middle of February I couldn’t take it any more. I was never sleeping, I was having 3-4 panic attacks a day. My only thoughts were on surviving. One morning in February after another night of constant panic attacks I sat in the 150 Tremont Street cafeteria eating my breakfast and crying. I called my mom and finally told her what was happening to me.

After lots of tests and discussion with my psychiatrist, it was determined I had panic disorder and Generalized anxiety disorder, and insomnia brought on by the GAD and panic.

I took the T home that day with so many emotions- relief, worry, shame, hope.

Panic disorder means I have a chemical imbalance in my brain, causing my body to have sudden and unexpected attacks of fear. The good news, with medicine and counseling, I can learn how to live with this disorder.

I made a lot of changes, I started commuting to college every day. I came up with a strict night time routine which helped my brain learn how to sleep again.

I learned how to cope with the constant anxiety. For me, the best way to cope was to have a set schedule and routine. I lived by my calendar, crossing things off when they were complete. To this day, straying from my routine messes me up for the whole day. 

I would stay busy, I worked a lot, I had some internships, I read a lot of books, watched tv, worked hard for my grades. I taught dance and competed in pageants and went skiing on the weekends. I thought if I was busy, I wouldn’t have time to be anxious, or at least I wouldn’t have time to think about how anxious I actually was. 

I would test myself to see how long I could go without a panic attack. 1 day, 1 week, 1 month. 

And just when I would feel confident with my progress, I would have a random panic attack on a Tuesday night and worry I was reverting to how it used to be. I had medicine to take if I did start to have a panic attack, but I felt ashamed if I needed to take it, like I was never going to be okay again. 

By senior year of college, I felt pretty normal again. Even if I started having a panic attack I could control it and go on with my day- a huge improvement from how it used to be.

I started applying for jobs, feeling ready to graduate from college and start in my field.

I graduated from college on May 19, 2019 and moved to Idaho on June 15, 2019.

Moving to Idaho has been really great, but also really hard. I love my job, and going to work, but I would be lonely on my days off. Sometimes I would just go to TJ Maxx or Target just so I wouldn’t be alone. 

About one month into living here I adopted my dog, Jackson, from the shelter, and I am so glad that I did, because he became my best friend and a great way for me to meet people, we would go on walks or hikes and to the dog park.

There has been so much good to come out of moving to Idaho and working here, but let me tell you, when the world shut down last March, I did not handle it well at all.

I went back to how I was freshman year of college, solely focused on trying to get through the day. 

If I felt lonely when I first moved here, that was nothing compared to how I felt when the pandemic started. 

I cried all the time, I felt like there couldn’t possibly be another person in the entire world who understood how I felt. I was alone. I was back to my daily consuming anxiety and not being able to think about anything else. 

Because one of my main coping mechanisms for anxiety is to be busy and not have time to focus on the anxiety, when the world shut down, there went my coping mechanism, and the anxiety and panic attacks came right back. 

After a few months of things staying the same, I decided to make some changes myself. 

I started going to therapy, I moved to a bigger apartment, I tried to find things I liked to do, even if it was something small like taking a walk or baking some muffins. 

Through it all, everyday, I showed up to work and tried my best. And some days, my best was really really really bad. 

So, if you are still reading this, you may be wondering, Why is Elizabeth sharing this with us? 

Well, I’ll tell you why.

Because over the past 2 years, I’ve been telling the stories of the people and for the people of Southern Idaho, and it’s been an honor. 

But, what I’ve learned from doing this is that everyone has a story to tell, and every story matters. Now, it might not matter to everyone, but my goal is to have each story I share affect just one person. 

So in reality, my story may only have an impact on one or two people who have read this far, but in my mind, that’s enough. 

I know what it’s like when you feel alone, when you lay in bed at night crying because it’s all just too much to handle. So if you ever feel that way, I get it. 

If there is one thing I’ve learned since 10th grade, it’s this: 

All of my life, I’ve wanted to be successful, thinking that I would finally be successful when XYZ happened. 

I still worry I won’t ever be successful, but I’ve come to realize there is no definition to success, like all of the stories I’ve told over the past year, everybody’s is different. Maybe I won’t ever be the host of Good Morning America, or a rockette, maybe I’ll just be happy.

2021, A Day In The Life Of Liz, Idaho, Jackson, Twin Falls

A day in the life of Jackson

Time to get up Mom, come on!!!

Finally, time for my morning walk!!

Had my walk and my breakfast, back to bed!!!

You’re home! I’ve been waiting for you to get home from work ALL DAY!!!

Time to go out for my afternoon play time!!

Back home and ready for my after dinner nap!

Time for bed, today was a really tiring day!! Can’t wait to see what tomorrow will bring!

2020, A Day In The Life Of Liz, Boston, Idaho, Jackson, Reporter, Suffolk University

Lessons from moving 2,546 miles across the country

Growing up, I had lots of goals, lots of dreams and ambitions. 

For a little while, I wanted to be an actor on Broadway. 

Then I wanted to be a princess. Don’t ask me why, I just wanted to marry a prince so I could be a princess and have all the fancy jewels. 

Then my goal was to go to college so I could graduate and be a news reporter and eventually work my way up to being the host of Good Morning America. 

So, I went to Suffolk University and I had 5 internships and 3 jobs and commuted from home to school every day. I mastored taking the train, and learned all the ins and outs of Boston. 

And I loved it. I mean, honestly I LOVED it. 

I took classes that were hard but would prepare me for my job, some of which I still think about today. 

On May 17, 2019 I got a job as a reporter. On May 19, 2019 I graduated college. 

On June 10, 2019 I began my drive to Idaho for my first job as a reporter at KMVT News in Twin Falls, Idaho.  

I was excited, scared, nervous, and really happy. 

I was moving from Easton, Massachusetts to Twin Falls, Idaho to start my career. 

A 2,546 mile drive to prepare myself for what was about to happen. 

And here is what I now know: 

I greatly underestimated how hard it would be to move literally across the entire country by myself at the age of 22. 

The greatest way to learn is by doing the job. College was awesome and great, but my goodness, I’ve learned more in the past year and a half than I did in 4 years of school. 

Nothing will prepare you to cover a fatal car accident, or horrific house fire. Nothing. 

You will go home at night and not be able to forget about your job. 

You really don’t get a day off. 

Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, your day will not go how you planned it. 

But, there is one thing I have learned over everything else that I will carry with me for the rest of time: 

Life has its own plans for you.

I mean, growing up I had all these dreams and goals and things I wanted to do, and moving to Twin Falls, Idaho wasn’t one of them, wasn’t even a thought that popped into my head. 

But it has without a doubt been the best decision I’ve ever made. 

There are people I didn’t know 2 years ago who now, I couldn’t picture my life without. 

The people in this community are some of the nicest, most genuine, most caring people I know. 

I mean, I really just love being a part of this community, with all my heart. 

Now, I’m not saying you should just drop your goals and dreams and hope for the best, but I am saying that some of the best things to happen in your life and too good to imagine, they are too good to dream up. 

I guess what I’m saying is, be open to all the possibilities that come your way, because sometimes the most unexpected ones are the best ones. 

I still have so much to learn, so far to go, so many more mistakes to make, so many more stories to tell. 

And I am so excited to see all the things that happen to me that were too great to dream up. 

2020, A Day In The Life Of Liz, Idaho, Jackson, Reporter, Twin Falls

Celebrating 1 Year at KMVT

1 Year ago on this very day, I started working at KMVT. I remember I was so nervous walking in that day, wanting to make sure I would make a good first impression.

It was the greatest decision ever to take this job, not only have I learned a lot about being a good journalist, but also about life.

Moving here was hands down the hardest thing I have ever done. I had just graduated college, and I left everything I had ever known and worked for to move here. I was lonely and sad, and some days I still am. But, most days I love it.

I used to be the type of person who was always working towards my next goal. Whatever I was doing wasn’t good enough, it could be better, I could be better. And while I still have goals and dreams, I have realized that if I live like that I will never be happy with where I am right now.

I love living in Idaho. It’s beautiful, the people are some of the nicest I have ever met, and there is so many fun things to do.

This job is stressful, there is so much that could go wrong, and I don’t want to do a bad job. But, the best thing that I ever could have done is plan ahead. I know I contradict myself, because I also say to live in the moment, but if you don’t plan ahead, you won’t get your work done in time, and make it in time for the shows.

I do miss my home in Massachusetts, but at the same time, I have made a home here, with people who I love.

The most important thing I have learned since moving here is everything works out. Maybe not what you imagined or pictured in your head, but sometimes even better. I love working here at KMVT News, and I love living here in Idaho, and I am excited to see what my future holds, but for now… I’m just going to be happy.

2020, Idaho, SPRING, Twin Falls

Spring is my favorite season

Hi friends. Recently, I realized that spring is definitely my favorite season. I love how everything comes to life again, how I can feel the sun on my face, I love the flowers blooming, but it isn’t too hot out yet. I love spring, it makes me happy.

You know what else I love? Seeing beautiful sights in nature.

Over the last few weeks I have taken pictures of pretty things I have seen while I was out walking my dog, or getting B-Roll for my stories and they will be in this blog, check it out!!

Yellow is my favorite color!
How cool is it that this is a photo I took? It looks like a painting.
Beautiful views while taking my dog for a walk!
Speaking of… my handsome boy
I had to go to Wilson Lake in Jerome County for a possible boat sinking. There was not boat sinking, but this was a great sunset!
Idaho is so pretty
I love tulips, I think they are my favorite flower, they close up at night, and come alive when the sun comes out! Such smart flowers!

I hope you liked looking at the beautiful pictures as much as I did! HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!

2020, A Day In The Life Of Liz, Idaho, Jackson, Reporter, Twin Falls

A Day in the Life of Liz

Hi everyone, I hope you are all doing well!! I was talking to Andrea and Andrew on Tuesday, and they said how I should document one day in my life and make a blog post about it, so that’s what I did. Throughout the day Tuesday I took notes, took pictures and well… here we are.

Here I am, just getting to work.

I get to work at a different time every day, it depends on when I set up my interviews and all of that, but on Tuesday, I got to work at 10:30 in the morning, clearly just out of the shower.

We have been doing a lot of our interviews over Zoom, or FaceTime.

I have a great set up figured out for how I conduct my online interviews.

Heading out to get B-Roll

Even though I can do all my interviews over the internet, I still have to go out and get B-Roll!

Saw these beautiful flowers while I was out getting B-Roll.

My boss told me to wash one of the KMVT cars while I was out, which is one of my favorite things to do.

CAR WASH!

Lately, I’ve been craving chicken all the time, so after the car wash, I headed to get Chic-Fil-A before I start editing.

YUMMY!!!
Time to start editing.

After I ate my food, I started editing. Editing can be very tedious, but somedays it pays off. On this day, I loved my stories. It took me about 3 hours to finish all my editing, but it was worth it. Everyone has a different editing rhythm, but I have found one that works for me.

In the recording booth, ready to track my package.
Selfie with my boss Kade on my way back from the recording booth.

After I lay down my voice and finish all my B-Roll, I have to export!

I have little notes to remind myself of things!

After I finish all my editing and writing and exporting, I have to start my web stories.

Web story time!

The station has been weird lately, many people are working from home, and all the stories have been related to the virus in some way or another, but we are doing our best!

After my web stories are written, I have to wait until the show is over to clip my videos, so they will be on the website.

A very time consuming process.

It was around 7 o’clock when I finished all my work and went home to see… my pup pup Jackson.

Always so happy to see me!

I made my dinner, which was just leftovers and sat down at my table by myself to eat it while I watch some Netflix. My nightly routine.

Now, this was just my Tuesday, and the thing is that I never really know how my day is going to go when I get to work. There are so many unknowns. A few weeks ago we had an earthquake 8 minutes before the 6 p.m. newscast and had to change our shows. One night, there was a house fire at 8 p.m, so it’s random and you just never know what your day will hold.

Laying in bed with my puppy.

Then I got ready for bed, took Jackson out to go to the bathroom once more, and went to sleep.

What. A. Day.

2019, A Day In The Life Of Liz, Idaho, Reporter

Living it up in Idaho

Hello everyone! I hope you are all doing well, I am very sorry that I haven’t written a blog in a while, but here I am ready to get back to it!

As you all know, I am living the dream here in Twin Falls, Idaho as a reporter for KMVT News. That may sound sarcastic, but I mean every word of that! I love this job!

I have officially worked here for 4 months now! June 17th-Oct 17th! 

I have covered so many interesting stories.

I got a dog! Jackson and I were made for each other, he is so hyper and is always up for an adventure, but he also loves a good nap now and then! I adopted him from the Twin Falls animal shelter.


I am so much happier and so much less lonely with him here!

My Mom came to visit, and so did my Dad!

Now, if anyone is reading this who is a senior in college, or is looking for a job, I have some tips that I have learned since I started this job! 

Number 1: Take it day by day, it’s important to look ahead and have goals, but so much can change so quickly, so it’s important to just take it day by day.

Number 2: Really throw yourself into wherever you move to. For me, it’s Southern Idaho. I really have embraced the culture here, and I think the viewers can tell who tries to understand what is important here. Being a reporter isn’t about me, it’s about the viewers, so I try to do stories that matter to them, like Friday night football, or farming stories. Those things matter to them, so that is what I do.


Number 3: Don’t take everything so seriously. This job can really be kind of sad, when I go cover house fires, or car crashes, or people that lost their job, I get sad and I feel so bad for those people. I try to not take my own life so seriously and just have fun too. 

Number 4: This job can kind of make you want to be a mean person, because a lot of people will be mean to you. Sometimes, I am driving back from a story, and I think, wow that person was so nice to me, and really made me feel welcome at their house/store/farm. I realize that being a nice, kind, caring, selfless person is way more important than what type of job you have because I remember those people, and I never remember the mean/annoying/rude ones.

Since being here my goal of life has changed. My goal is just to be nice and kind and have people feel good when they are around me. 

Anyways, I hope you all are doing well. Have a great day!

2019, A Day In The Life Of Liz, Idaho, Reporter, Suffolk University, Twin Falls

Life Lately with Liz!

Hello friends! Liz here! So much has been going on in my little world lately, I thought you’d all like to see what is going on in my crazy world!

Well, on May 19th, 2019, I graduated from college!

Then, on June 10th, Mom and I started our drive across the entire country. From Easton MA to Twin Falls, Idaho in 6 days! What a long, tiring, beautiful 6 days!

On June 17th, I started my new job as a Reporter at KMVT News here in Twin Falls, Idaho. I started on June 17th, and on that same day I moved into my new apartment.

Then, two weeks later, I got stitches.

I lost my phone on the side of the highway covering a car crash, and I was phone less for 5 days. I went live on air for the first time.

I am covering all sorts of stories here, and it’s very hard to do. I get sad sometimes when the story is sad, and some days I don’t do a very good job, but I am trying, that’s for sure.

This whole new life out here is very different for me. I’m all alone, I don’t have any friends, and I’m working at my first job out of college, literally right out of college. It’s hard and overwhelming, but it’s also good and challenging and I’m learning so much.

Life out here is so different than Boston. For one, there is no public transportation, which is how I got around back home. Second, things aren’t open on Sunday’s and things close early. People here more just enjoy their day, which is hard for me to do. I’m learning.

It’s very beautiful though. There is a lot of beautiful outdoor adventures that I have been going on, which I love.

So, if you want to visit me here, let me know! I have a nice big apartment you can stay in, and we can go kayaking, and swimming and biking and you can come to the studio!

Thanks for reading! Have a great summer!